![]() ![]() It doesn’t emotionally or physically hurt me anymore. Then I’m okay with losing whoever wants to go. If I can lose them and still be here winning (I think) at life. People I’ve never imagined living without. Phew, I lost myself for a second, I lost myself. YOU SAID: Phew, for a minute there I lost myself, I lost myself. I’ve lost a few of the most important people to me. Phew, for a minute there I lost myself, I lost myself. I guess it makes it a bit easier getting through life. But still scared to death to do this without him when I think about the future. I have no idea how I’ve made it this far without him but here I am, still standing. Hands down the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. And I didn’t get that opportunity to tell him goodbye. But they had long illnesses and I had time to make peace and say goodbye. And I remember asking someone several times. Sometimes driving home takes me back to those feelings of anxiety and worry.įor almost a year and a half I was in a dreamlike state. Even parking the car how he had it, took me back to that night. And when I first heard sirens here it took me back to that night. It took a long time for me to open the door without thinking about seeing him in the floor. So, my family kept telling me that I probably had PTSD from finding my dad. So I did that and I guess I’ll be going back to Salt Lick this afternoon. So then my grandmother texted and asked if I would ask if Mitchell would weedeat. Here’s the link if you want to read and comment your opinions. I read the full thing and of course we joked about it. One from Sarah with a link about a wendigo being spotted in the gorge. I made it home and talked to him a bit more before I crashed. It was late when I left but luckily, Issac kept me company on the phone while I drove. Though the first round was probably funnier. So I took a shower before Kris came and got the girls.Īnd I went back to Salt Lick and we went for a round 2 but i think I was more relaxed and feel like it went better this round. Then Amber told me that she lost all the footage from Friday nights podcast. And after eating I just decided to chill in the hammock for a bit. So I came in and fixed me and the girls something to eat. So he helped me figure out a few things I have of value. His stepdad is really good with the stuff I have that I don’t know anything about. I came home and it wasn’t long before Patrick and his stepdad came by. It didn’t take me long to finish what I needed to do. The girls woke up and got ready and we headed to the kitchen. I talked to Sammy for a bit and made plans with her for this week. I had my coffee and got dressed and ready for my day. I talked to my grandmother first thing this morning and caught her up on my life. So I figured a compromise, I’ll go in after they get woke up. And I went back to Salt Lick and we went for a round 2 but i think I was more relaxed and feel like it went better this round. So I took a shower before Kris came and got the girls. The girls are used to sleeping in on Sunday’s because they’re usually with Kris. Then Amber told me that she lost all the footage from Friday nights podcast. ![]()
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